Sunday, November 20, 2011

can I?

Can I make U like me once again?

Mgkn aku ga tau gmn rasa yg kau alami saat itu, mgkn aku jg ga tau gmn sktnya dan cemburunya htimu saat itu, kala kau tau bahwa aku dg yg lain.. aku pun tak tau klo saat itu kau jg memendam rasa utk diriku.. maapkan aku..

Kini aku menyukaimu, kini aku memujamu, kini aku menanti dan mengharapkan dirimu... Aku tak tau bgmn perasaanmu kini... jarak memisahkan kau dg aku, aku ga bs melihat ekspresimu saat kita chat maupun sms.. Jjr, aku merasa tak tau byk tentangmu.. Kau menutup dirimu, tapi kdg ku merasa kau mencoba membuka dirimu..

Apa kau tau? aku merasa tersiksa dg rasa ini, aku hny bs menanti, tanpa tau perasaanmu... Kau misterius bgiku... Aku berhrp kau jg menyukaiku...bkn sbg temen maupun shbt... aku ingin kau menyukai dan menyayangiku serta menjagaku... tp aku tau, aku egois tuk mengharapkanmu... knp?krn dlu mgkn kau mengharapkan diriku, tp aku tak melihatmu...

Aku ingin menyapamu selalu, tp aku jg tll takut... aku ingin kau tau, aku ingin mengenalmu lebih... bolehkah? kau smpt membuatku berubah, dg hny mengenangmu, dg hny mengingatmu, dg hny setiap kata2 yg kau ucapkan... aku sgt bersemangat, aku merasa hidup... tp rasa ini jg bs membuat aku jatuh, melankolis, merasa rindu km, dan srg jg ku merasa kau menjauhiku...

apakah kau inginkan aku tuk mundur?

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Tonight I Miss U again

gw nemu lagu...n gw lgsg suka, n pgn bgt dedikasiin ini buat seseorg yg gw suka saat ini :


Greatness as you
Smallest as me
You show me what is deep as sea


A little love, little kiss
A litlle hug, little gift
All of little something. these are our memories


You make me cry, 
Make me smile, 
Make me feel that love is true... 
You always stand by my side, 
I don't want to say goodbye.


You make me cry, 
Make me smile, 
Make me feel the joy of love.
Oh! Kissing you... 
Thank you for all the love you always give to me, 
Oh! I love you... 


(* Repeat from the beginning * 01 time)


Yes I do, I always do... 


Make me cry, 
Make me smile
Make me feel that love is true
You always stand by my side
I don't want to say goodbye.


You make me cry, 
Make me smile, 
Make me feel the joy of love
Oh! Kissing you... 
Thank you for all the love you always give to me, 
Oh! I love you... 


To be with you... Oh! I love you...

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Any Part

Hi, diary... today, my country celebrate hero's day...and i almost forget about it (hahaha one of my best friend said that i was "bad citizen" :P)

Almost 2 weeks i've been working at my first place... And, maybe i can say that so many things happened day by day.. I'm not mature enough, not tough enough... i also must learn about how to be patient and hv positive attitude and positive thinking...

Yesterday, i was bad think to my friend, i've been angry to my self that can't do anything and i was really hate that situation... I almost cried at office, but i can handle it,fiuhhh...

Don't u know? being a Christian is not easy... maybe i try to pray every day when i wanna go to office, when i want to eat, and when i wanna go to bed... and i read bible... but i think my attitude still the same...>.< almost 3days of this week, the reflection and Bible said to me about being born again in Christ, more patient, more love, said the truth, soft-spoken.. and as Jesus's son we must reflect our light, and love to others...

I'm not doing that yet... i must learn more and more...

I want to be more better than i am now...

I wanna be useful, i want to hv better skill...

I want to be closer to Jesus...

T.T can I?

i hv my emotion back, sometimes easy to be angry again....

can i be better that i wanna be?

i wanna try my best..

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Hari Mingguku

Hr ini, 6 nov 2011 tu hr Minggu skaligus hr Idul Adha...

Sjak kmrn, gw udh liat adanya kambing yg d iket tuk d korbanin hr ni, bau kambing wkwk. tp bukan krn baunya tu, gw mlh miris jg, ksian ma kambingnya, jd kebayang2 deh saat mo makan mlm...>.< bikin ga nafsu makan..

Hr ini gw ketemu ko2 gw, tuk grj... n gw lwtin bbrp t4 tuk pemotongan...>,< pas d jalan saat gw naik busway gw liat ada yg d sembelih.... n pas mo makan d jln jg ada bekas darah, ya ampunnnnn... jjr berasa suram aja liat yg begituan... bikin ga nafsu makan.

N pas mo blik kos jg, d gang kos ad bekas potong2, hiiiiiiyy...gw br kli ni liatin yg bgituan, slama ni ga prnh tau deh kyknya (entah jg pas jaman cilik gw liat gnian apa ga) tp hr ini cukup resah dg liat darahnya tu

Hufhhh, suwung n sepi lg stlh ko2 gw blik ke kosnya...blm terbiasa lg, pdhl kmrn mah ga gmn2...hahaha

Hr ini kotbahnya ttg murah hti, intinya better to give than receive... gw nikmatin ibadah ptama gw ini,yaahh mggu kmrn smpt yg ga ibadah sih hehehe...:)

Gw sgt berharap hr Minggu mendtg segera tiba, bs ke grj lg brg ko2 gw...
bsk krj lg nih, entah bsk akan hadapin apaan...gw smpt tuker pkran ma ko2 gw mengenai hal yg shrsnya gw lakuin n yg kira2 ga hrs gw lakuin....

Gw perlu bljr byk, demi perubahan skill maupun personal gw... slain tu perlu bljr hemat >.< sm perlu jg bljr n bljr tuk ga sll menerima, bljr tuk mandiri....

Gw sll berdoa ma Tuhan tuk pimpin langkah gw hr per hr d kantor maupun d kos...haha feel lonely inside and wanna cry again..sigh... I believe that someday, i'll be better and hv my skill improved...:) God bless us, hepi sunday!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

welcome again

hello blog, lm ga jumpa... kangennnnn :-* hehehe

blog, gw udh krj nih, mulai mggu ini sih, y blm genap semggu n msh dlm tahap bljr2 aja >.< n lbh ke bljr sndr, ga ad yg ajarin hehehe. smoga gw bs yaaaa, ini msh dlm tahap adaptasi... gw berserah aja sih ma Tuhan.. tp mayan sneng, gw pny 3 tmen dket d kantor hehe, sesama junior lah...stiap lunch brg, pulang kntr jg brg meski beda arah hehehe...

nice to hv a new experience...^^