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Hi, diary... today, my country celebrate hero's day...and i almost forget about it (hahaha one of my best friend said that i was "bad citizen" :P)

Almost 2 weeks i've been working at my first place... And, maybe i can say that so many things happened day by day.. I'm not mature enough, not tough enough... i also must learn about how to be patient and hv positive attitude and positive thinking...

Yesterday, i was bad think to my friend, i've been angry to my self that can't do anything and i was really hate that situation... I almost cried at office, but i can handle it,fiuhhh...

Don't u know? being a Christian is not easy... maybe i try to pray every day when i wanna go to office, when i want to eat, and when i wanna go to bed... and i read bible... but i think my attitude still the same...>.< almost 3days of this week, the reflection and Bible said to me about being born again in Christ, more patient, more love, said the truth, soft-spoken.. and as Jesus's son we must reflect our light, and love to others...

I'm not doing that yet... i must learn more and more...

I want to be more better than i am now...

I wanna be useful, i want to hv better skill...

I want to be closer to Jesus...

T.T can I?

i hv my emotion back, sometimes easy to be angry again....

can i be better that i wanna be?

i wanna try my best..