What He wants...

Gw mau crita sesuatu... Sebenernya agak heran dan bertny2 jg sih dalem ati... Background gw kuliah dr IT, n kemarin krj jg IT sih...tp jjr skrg gw ga mau bersinggungan dg IT lg, gw pgn yg simple n ringan.. 

Gw memang blm ada pandangan apa yg gw mau, jd blm kebyg krjaan kyk apa sih yg jd idaman gw skrg... Tp bbrp kli sih klo gw nyari krjaan sih yg admin..gw tau tu sgt nyasar dr background gw... Trs udh 2x ini gw tu d panggilnya buat yg ada hubungannya ma IT, pdhl jls2 gw nglamar bukan bagian itu.. Heran sih..

Trus, gw crita ke koko gw, sambil blg "apa Tuhan tuh ga mau gw lepas dr dunia IT?" lalu koko gw jwb "mgkn Tuhan ga mau km kyk Yunus" hahaha... 

Apa yah maunya Tuhan dari aku... Koko gw sih nyaranin gw buat doa n minta petunjuk... Gmn ya, jjr gw rasanya emg ga mau lg ttg koding lg sih, n emg ga tau jg nyasarnya mau kemana, tp apa emg ini yg Tuhan mau tunjukkin yah, klo dunia IT tu ga cm koding, tp Dia kasih pilihan lain ke gw...?

Balik lagi deh q bertny.."apa aku mampu?rasanya ga pede"

My Another Chance

Dretttt.... Drettttt.... Drettttt... Was i wrong? Was i dreamed? It seemed i heard a vibrate of my phone... Oh yeah! My phone! It was my mom called me to woke me up at 5.... I answered it then... Hoaaam... I still wanted to go sleep again.. But i had appointment at 7.30 so i needed to go early to avoid the trafficjam...

Approximately 5.45 i started my journey, went by busway.. Feel fresh in the morning, i saw there were much vehicles in road, also a bit crowded too in busway... Then, my mind went around, and thought it was amazing! They are amazing... Its too early to start our day, we still can sleep a bit under our warm blanket... But they do the opposite things... At that time, they are in busway, hv their destination to go, make me feel excited that i do the same thing like them! Hahahaha...

I arrived at my destination at 6.11, still had to wait 1hour 30minutes... I had mineral water only in my bag, and i prefered to stay in busway station until the time... While i was chatted with Untung, i looked once again (after several times i looked and read it!) at the invitation message... Oh no! Its 8.30 not 7.30!!!! How come i dont mention about this time before..????? Silly me, sigh... I need to spent much times alone, and not in my room too...feel bored to wait hahahahaha....

Im not patient to wait something, i cant wait longer, just sit and do nothing make me crazy haha.. I felt hungry and finally at 7 (7 something) i decided to go down and find the building...i bought "kue cubit" to accompany my lovely stomach haha....

I was a bit shocked, because the building wasnt in good condition as i thought, it has been repairing till now... After met the security, i went to 23rd floor....zingggggg...no one here? I met OB and asked for location of PT XXX... And he said it still closed... Ah! I see, im too early haha, i knew it already... Then as he recommended me to wait, i asked for canteen, he said i can wait in 25th floor... 

I enjoyed my self here, ate kue cubit, took some pics from window, go to toilet and also took 2 pics of mine :) hahaha absolutely needed to do narcism in toilet :P

Good morning Jakarta!

Kue Cubit

I did some tests with the other 7 people.. And as hrd said, if it was possible, we would do the cycle in full day... There were some people decide to go and reschedule, and still remain 2people only (include me)....yeah! Really full day, i finished all of these until 3.30pm... I waited (a bit long) them to interview me one by one.. They also announced the result to me... It depends on me now, what will i take? :)

What a tired day, huh? I dont know if im qualified enough for that position or they just need fastest person to join... I think they need me, haha... Oh yeah, i forget to mention, that my melancholic become more dominant now...such a pity haha...:P

But anyway, i still can go anywhere freely.....live my life silently....:)

One to Two Adventure

Hari ini, gw pergi ke plaza Semanggi (sama siapa????) sendirian, hahaha... Niatnya sih mau cari kaset or CD rohani gtu buat mama... Yah modal nekad lah ke plaza Semanggi, gambling entah ada pondok pumian d sna apa ga, yg jls gw tau mah d situ ada Inul Vista nya sih huehehehehehehe..

Singkat cerita nih, gw kyk anak ilang nyampe d semanggi, binging jg sih mau melangkahkan kaki kemana, so gw pilih naik eskalator ajah... Yeay! Dg mudahmya gw nemu tu pondok pujian... Gw masuk deh ke situ, awalnya mata gw naik turun nyari sesosok nama penyanyinya, tp akhirnya tak putusin nanya ajah deh... Menurut si mbak yg jaga, katanya penyanyi yg gw cri ga ada d situ...di situ cm jual album maranatha, d luar itu ga d jual... Sigh...

Trus gw crita deh ma Untung (siape nih??), dy tu musuh gw yg lg sibuk garap laporan hahahaha :P

Nah si untung nyaranin buat beli lagu yg lain tuh drpd gw mubazir dtg situ tanpa hasil... Iya jg sih, tp selera mama gw kaga d tau pegimane... Gw sms tuh td mama gw, gw blg sih ada lagunya nikita, don moen, ir niko jg, brgkli mama gw ada minat... But she said yah d puter dlu, klo enak ya bru beli...blablabla...sm beliau jg blg ga ush dlu...n ajakin gw buat jeng2 ma dy pas d rumah... Okelah kalo begitu, ketimbang eke ribet beli tp tnyt dy ga suka kan males bgt rasanya.

Yah berhubung perut pun laper, akhirnya gw memutuskan tuk makan... Gw milih Solaria, hehehehe... Trs gw pesen nasi capcay seafood sm milkshake vanilla (tdnya mo coklat, tp ga ada...) harganya 50K kembali 7K... Heheheehe

Nasi Capcay Seafood, a bit salty but still nyummy in my stomach...

Milkshake Vanilla

Ini gara2 semlm si Untung kirim gmbr milo ke WA gw, jd gw nya ngidam susu.. Sigh... 

Namanya jalan2 sndr tu ga asik, saat masuk ke Solaria itu berasa anak ilang, haha.. Tp untungnya yg dtg ke situ sendirian pun ada jg, jd ga cm gw doang, hihi seenggaknya ada jg yg perginya tanpa temen... Tp gw ga terlalu sepi jg sih, soalnya gangguin Untung yg lg krj, hahahaha, bikin dy ngiler dg makan siang gw ini...:p

Setelah makan, eke melanjutkan perjalanan ke........WC dlu deh ya, pipis booo...hahaha... Habis pipis, baru deh gw nyari namanya Gramed... Tdnya mikir mau pulang sih tp gw dngr dr mbaknya yg d Sola koq ujan, jd ya main dlu deh... Stlh muter2 akhirnya nemu jg si gramed d bawah, aneh jg lokasinya koq d bwh, terpencil gtu mpe ga dpet sinyal n lost contact dg si Untung.. Di situ gw beli buku teknik menggambar (udah dr kapan kepgn beli) sm tdnya mau beli Chicken Soup, tp apa daya, gw takut boros wkwkwkkk...

Hbs dr gramed eke mutusin pulang, krn mau ke carefour, mau beli cemilan sm nyetok milo (rencananya gt, tp gagal wkwkwk...).. Trs pas udh nyampe d halte busway dket kos an, eh ktmu anak kos...gw sapa deh tuh, tnyt dy mau ke PGC, eaaa ikutlah diriku dgnya hahaha hbsnya belum prnh ke PGC, hahahaha... Di sna nemenin dy blnj kerudung buat ibu ma adiknya, trs dy jg ngeliat2 n beli baju tidur, gw jd ikutan beli deh haha, modelnya lucu sih sm emg gw jg butuh (meski ga banget)...trs muter2 bntr akhirnya kita pulang hahaha, ga tll lama jg mainnya tp jg bs crita2...:)

Lumayan capek n ngntk yah... Jam segni aja koq mata gw udh kriyip2 ga jls haha, tp gw udh mandi ma udh makan... Klo ga mandi nnti d blg kepliket wkwkwkkwkwk...

Hari selasa yg melelahkan jg, tp jg bs dpet tmen jalan...:)

Emg yah lbh baik berdua drpd sendiri...

Nostalgic Weekend

Hi there!

Today is Saturday, weekend! The day where people can enjoy their night with their love, or friends... But for me, today is my nostalgic weekend... I hv no plan for tonight, just enjoy myself. Im just watching movie, and get sms from my friend asking for some chit chat with me...

My phone's battery getting low, and seems weird because it takes so long time to charge it, but it doesnt matter for me. I still have my lovely old lepi besides me... She can accompany me and my night... I change my CV tonight (declare that im unemployed now), and then i choose to see my MUSIC folder in my drive... I rearrange some songs that i copied from my phone... Then i see Instrument folder, so i decide to listening these...

I feel like im back to the past, where i was in college and did internship... I always think that instrument is the way that i can feel peace and comfort in it (also can help me to sleep hahaha).. I remembered when i was in high school, instrument always accompanied my early morning in school...so feel fresh! And i also nvr forget that I really love Canon instrument! Thx to my ex bf that ever played this using ur guitar for me, and u also ever video it...:)

I find my choir song too! I ever joined in choir at my faculty haha.. Together with friends we sang the song in KKR... The moment that i nvr forget, because i really love singing! I miss sola**** choir at my high school too... I also miss my time while joined vocal group in junior high school.... I really feel sorry because i quit from my choir before :P

I also play one of my favourite songs (its not instrument) and totally i remembered him! Haha.. Maybe i dedicated the song for him... It feels like i wanna say to him "I hv been trying for so long to let u know how I feel.. Give me one more night, because I cant wait forever"... I always thinking about him when i listening to this song...and i really really often listening this song until now...

Haha i hv grown up, but i still have my nostalgic moment, sad or happy moment...:)

Nice....

Happy Weekend guys!

My Silly Cutie Best Friend

Hello, its me again! Im not sleep yet, my brain still wondering about my thought, so i decided to read again all of my past posting in this blog... Haha silly me, also make me laugh read my post.. It was almost all about him, about love and job that i posted... But also i find myself tried to hv more spirit, surrender to God, and had positive thinking (although it was so hard until this time!)

My brain still working, and i remember my silly cutie best friend, that almost always comfort, help, and support me... She knows me well, she almost knows everything about me.... I had lost much moments about her, seldom to meet, but sometimes we chat... So, i visit her home again, read her stories.

There are some fun, cheerful always and also silly...i find that she wrote about our conversation before... The fact is, she had changed now, she isnt the same as before that i knew for the first time.. Maybe because her silliness, about sociality, and her job that make her change... Im a bit shock, but i know and i believe i still can find her silliness inside her, her smile, her good, always still be my best friend that always laugh, cheer me up, and hug me while i cried....

Haha, im crying while im writing this, maybe she will say : "lebay" to me, but its my feelings towards her.... I also told her, if she was here, i will hug her, really really wanna hug her, and asking "are u okay being like this?"

I read her story, about the cigarette lighter and also other her adventures... These make me know u r really really love being free (i knew it already, u like travelling), do what u want, but also u know every risk in every step u take... Yeah, u know it, but why u choose that path? Im sad when u taste that spicy fried rice and aching stomach, without anyone else accompany u....

Im sorry if im interfere that much, maybe u will say that u r OK with that, and totally no problem with that....u can explore many things, u can also survive in it...

I remember, someone told me that "naughty or wild people can survive more than good people"

Yeah maybe u also can more survive than me in this world, learn and see many beautiful also bad things.... Hope u wont be changed a lot in character, still be silly for me, still be good to me, i always want u to be my silly cutie best friend that call me "innocent"

Nov 2013 is End of Journey

Hey ya!

Its been so longgg time not to see u here... How are u? Im sorry to ignore u alone here... Now, im gonna tell u, its not about my classic love story, but about my job... Well, i hv left my job now, im unemployed, no need to worry about stress anymore, no need to get up early... But at the same time, i dont get any income hahaha, also the truth is im getting bored easily to hv nothing next to me! I miss my friends, i miss my partner also...i really thank him for covering and helping me all this time! He is my best partner...

I dont regret about my decision to leave... I feel uncomfort recently with the environment, the job, also the leader.. I feel like this job make me stressed and depressed much, feel like i cant handle it, i dunno why i liked this kind of job before. Typing some codes, running it, and fixing the errors....#sigh~ sometimes i got excited, but when i found errors, my mood got the worst ever! I envy with other employee at my office, they can hv relax while working.. They can go home ontime, office also seems like a cemetery...hahaha...

Well, just now i remembered the past 2 years, when i got info from dbee about this company, at first i applied for product specialist... But finally, they offered me as programmer, position that truly i want... I still remembered first day i joined in... Make new friends.. Then after 2weeks i went to my client office, and must stayed there for the project... It felt like no home for me, need to move from one client to another, need to move from first boarding house to another (because Jakarta is trafficjam city, i dont hv any vehicle of mine)....

The team changed several times, when my leader also resigned, i think it was the worst thing! And even worst while he came, i dont know what to tell about him, I dont wanna share here.... My closest partner also resigned.. It made me uncomfort...but my first and priority reason of resign wasnt him, but i really really cant handle this job anymore... I hope i can get more relax job...unfortunately, i dont know what to do now, feel like i dont hv any direction where to go...seems bad...

Time still goes by itself, lets see what will i do next...