Hi there!
Today is Saturday, weekend! The day where people can enjoy their night with their love, or friends... But for me, today is my nostalgic weekend... I hv no plan for tonight, just enjoy myself. Im just watching movie, and get sms from my friend asking for some chit chat with me...
My phone's battery getting low, and seems weird because it takes so long time to charge it, but it doesnt matter for me. I still have my lovely old lepi besides me... She can accompany me and my night... I change my CV tonight (declare that im unemployed now), and then i choose to see my MUSIC folder in my drive... I rearrange some songs that i copied from my phone... Then i see Instrument folder, so i decide to listening these...
I feel like im back to the past, where i was in college and did internship... I always think that instrument is the way that i can feel peace and comfort in it (also can help me to sleep hahaha).. I remembered when i was in high school, instrument always accompanied my early morning in school...so feel fresh! And i also nvr forget that I really love Canon instrument! Thx to my ex bf that ever played this using ur guitar for me, and u also ever video it...:)
I find my choir song too! I ever joined in choir at my faculty haha.. Together with friends we sang the song in KKR... The moment that i nvr forget, because i really love singing! I miss sola**** choir at my high school too... I also miss my time while joined vocal group in junior high school.... I really feel sorry because i quit from my choir before :P
I also play one of my favourite songs (its not instrument) and totally i remembered him! Haha.. Maybe i dedicated the song for him... It feels like i wanna say to him "I hv been trying for so long to let u know how I feel.. Give me one more night, because I cant wait forever"... I always thinking about him when i listening to this song...and i really really often listening this song until now...
Haha i hv grown up, but i still have my nostalgic moment, sad or happy moment...:)
Nice....
Happy Weekend guys!
Saturday, November 30, 2013
Friday, November 29, 2013
My Silly Cutie Best Friend
Hello, its me again! Im not sleep yet, my brain still wondering about my thought, so i decided to read again all of my past posting in this blog... Haha silly me, also make me laugh read my post.. It was almost all about him, about love and job that i posted... But also i find myself tried to hv more spirit, surrender to God, and had positive thinking (although it was so hard until this time!)
My brain still working, and i remember my silly cutie best friend, that almost always comfort, help, and support me... She knows me well, she almost knows everything about me.... I had lost much moments about her, seldom to meet, but sometimes we chat... So, i visit her home again, read her stories.
There are some fun, cheerful always and also silly...i find that she wrote about our conversation before... The fact is, she had changed now, she isnt the same as before that i knew for the first time.. Maybe because her silliness, about sociality, and her job that make her change... Im a bit shock, but i know and i believe i still can find her silliness inside her, her smile, her good, always still be my best friend that always laugh, cheer me up, and hug me while i cried....
Haha, im crying while im writing this, maybe she will say : "lebay" to me, but its my feelings towards her.... I also told her, if she was here, i will hug her, really really wanna hug her, and asking "are u okay being like this?"
I read her story, about the cigarette lighter and also other her adventures... These make me know u r really really love being free (i knew it already, u like travelling), do what u want, but also u know every risk in every step u take... Yeah, u know it, but why u choose that path? Im sad when u taste that spicy fried rice and aching stomach, without anyone else accompany u....
Im sorry if im interfere that much, maybe u will say that u r OK with that, and totally no problem with that....u can explore many things, u can also survive in it...
I remember, someone told me that "naughty or wild people can survive more than good people"
Yeah maybe u also can more survive than me in this world, learn and see many beautiful also bad things.... Hope u wont be changed a lot in character, still be silly for me, still be good to me, i always want u to be my silly cutie best friend that call me "innocent"
My brain still working, and i remember my silly cutie best friend, that almost always comfort, help, and support me... She knows me well, she almost knows everything about me.... I had lost much moments about her, seldom to meet, but sometimes we chat... So, i visit her home again, read her stories.
There are some fun, cheerful always and also silly...i find that she wrote about our conversation before... The fact is, she had changed now, she isnt the same as before that i knew for the first time.. Maybe because her silliness, about sociality, and her job that make her change... Im a bit shock, but i know and i believe i still can find her silliness inside her, her smile, her good, always still be my best friend that always laugh, cheer me up, and hug me while i cried....
Haha, im crying while im writing this, maybe she will say : "lebay" to me, but its my feelings towards her.... I also told her, if she was here, i will hug her, really really wanna hug her, and asking "are u okay being like this?"
I read her story, about the cigarette lighter and also other her adventures... These make me know u r really really love being free (i knew it already, u like travelling), do what u want, but also u know every risk in every step u take... Yeah, u know it, but why u choose that path? Im sad when u taste that spicy fried rice and aching stomach, without anyone else accompany u....
Im sorry if im interfere that much, maybe u will say that u r OK with that, and totally no problem with that....u can explore many things, u can also survive in it...
I remember, someone told me that "naughty or wild people can survive more than good people"
Yeah maybe u also can more survive than me in this world, learn and see many beautiful also bad things.... Hope u wont be changed a lot in character, still be silly for me, still be good to me, i always want u to be my silly cutie best friend that call me "innocent"
Nov 2013 is End of Journey
Hey ya!
Its been so longgg time not to see u here... How are u? Im sorry to ignore u alone here... Now, im gonna tell u, its not about my classic love story, but about my job... Well, i hv left my job now, im unemployed, no need to worry about stress anymore, no need to get up early... But at the same time, i dont get any income hahaha, also the truth is im getting bored easily to hv nothing next to me! I miss my friends, i miss my partner also...i really thank him for covering and helping me all this time! He is my best partner...
I dont regret about my decision to leave... I feel uncomfort recently with the environment, the job, also the leader.. I feel like this job make me stressed and depressed much, feel like i cant handle it, i dunno why i liked this kind of job before. Typing some codes, running it, and fixing the errors....#sigh~ sometimes i got excited, but when i found errors, my mood got the worst ever! I envy with other employee at my office, they can hv relax while working.. They can go home ontime, office also seems like a cemetery...hahaha...
Well, just now i remembered the past 2 years, when i got info from dbee about this company, at first i applied for product specialist... But finally, they offered me as programmer, position that truly i want... I still remembered first day i joined in... Make new friends.. Then after 2weeks i went to my client office, and must stayed there for the project... It felt like no home for me, need to move from one client to another, need to move from first boarding house to another (because Jakarta is trafficjam city, i dont hv any vehicle of mine)....
Time still goes by itself, lets see what will i do next...
Its been so longgg time not to see u here... How are u? Im sorry to ignore u alone here... Now, im gonna tell u, its not about my classic love story, but about my job... Well, i hv left my job now, im unemployed, no need to worry about stress anymore, no need to get up early... But at the same time, i dont get any income hahaha, also the truth is im getting bored easily to hv nothing next to me! I miss my friends, i miss my partner also...i really thank him for covering and helping me all this time! He is my best partner...
I dont regret about my decision to leave... I feel uncomfort recently with the environment, the job, also the leader.. I feel like this job make me stressed and depressed much, feel like i cant handle it, i dunno why i liked this kind of job before. Typing some codes, running it, and fixing the errors....#sigh~ sometimes i got excited, but when i found errors, my mood got the worst ever! I envy with other employee at my office, they can hv relax while working.. They can go home ontime, office also seems like a cemetery...hahaha...
Well, just now i remembered the past 2 years, when i got info from dbee about this company, at first i applied for product specialist... But finally, they offered me as programmer, position that truly i want... I still remembered first day i joined in... Make new friends.. Then after 2weeks i went to my client office, and must stayed there for the project... It felt like no home for me, need to move from one client to another, need to move from first boarding house to another (because Jakarta is trafficjam city, i dont hv any vehicle of mine)....
The team changed several times, when my leader also resigned, i think it was the worst thing! And even worst while he came, i dont know what to tell about him, I dont wanna share here.... My closest partner also resigned.. It made me uncomfort...but my first and priority reason of resign wasnt him, but i really really cant handle this job anymore... I hope i can get more relax job...unfortunately, i dont know what to do now, feel like i dont hv any direction where to go...seems bad...
Time still goes by itself, lets see what will i do next...
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