Chat with him :)

blog~~~ gw brusan chat ma dy hehehe...

dy skrg ini ke gereja, ibdh mlm taun baru...senengnya akuuu klo inget dy...>,< hehehehe snym terpasang lebar d wajahq hehehe...met ibdh yaaa buat kamu...:)

blog, gw sneng deh, td tu kan gw bersin... gw blg tuh klo gw bersin, hehehe dy tny tuh apa gw udh makan, hahaha... secuil perhatiannya terasa berarti buat gw hehehehehe... love him...:) hope the best for his future in love, study, career or anything

New Year 2012

Hohohoho....

Hi blog! Tomorrow is new year, what a gift! Tuhan udh memberikan yg terbaik utk qta selama 1 taun ini, cpet bgt berlalunya yaaa... ga terasa, bsk udh januari...

Skrg gw lg ada d kamar kos gw, d lt 4, dngr musik sambil nunggu ko2 gw dtg bw in makanan, hehehe.. Td gw smpt liat pemandangan luar, byk yg mainan kembang api... Simple but like it! d tengah lampu gedung2, gelapnya mlm, ada hiasan kembang api...hihihi ^^

Yg terlintas d pkran gw, gmn dg mlm taun bru dy yaa..wkwk.. sm gmn dg org rumah gw...>,<

Biasanya sih klo d rumah, ya emg nothing special sih nyambut taun bru, tp kan asik kmpl brg hehehe smbl nntn tivi acara mlm taun baruan, artis2 pd nyanyi...:P n biasanya count down tu dr Indo bagian timur yg dluan taun baru hehehehe..

Guys, apapun yg qta lakuin d mlm taun bru ini... yg pntg qta perlu menoleh sedikit ke blkg, apa sih yg udh qta dpet dr jan 2011 - des 2011 ini... n buat lah mimpi baru utk taun 2012...:)

Bersyukur bgt buat taun 2011, krn gw wisuda, gw jg merasakan cinta baru yg mewarnai hr2 gw, gw jg merasakan sedih, frustasi nya nganggur, tp indahnya rncn Tuhan mendekati akhir taun, Tuhan berikan gw job yg sesuai dg yg gw mau....:)

Harapan gw, gw bs menjadi pribadi yg lebih baik, lebih smgt, n ga mls krj (hehehehe ^^), lbh bs bljr dr pnglmn... smoga Tuhan sll melindungi gw, ko2 gw, ortu gw... melindungi shbt2 gw, melindungi org yg gw suka...:P

Happy New Year 2012... ready or not, we MUST ready to enter 2012 with new spirit! Be blessed yaa

x'mas time ^^

Hey blog! long time no see... sori banget ye, gw terkesan mengabaikan dirimu, oh nooo, gw brasa sok sibuk gtu dehhh, wkwkwk.. udh hmpr 2 bln nih gw ngerasain yg namanya KERJA... dan WOW! dahsyat bgt T.T gw srg ngerasa galau cm krn krjaan... gmn yah, gw jd mls deh klo mslnya gw ga bs ngerjain krjaan gw, pdhl krjaan ini adlh impian gw dr awal, n gw bs dpetin apa yg gw inginkan... Gw berusaha tuk mencintainya, bukan brrti gw ga bersyukur sih.. proses yg gw lalui terasa berat aja... gw ngerasa ada sisi ketidakadilan dr perush yg menempatkan kami, para junior, tuk terjun langsung ngerjain, tanpa adanya training... yah meski jg ada senior yg menuntun kami, tp cm 1 T.T

Hufhhh....gw smpt down, tertekan dg pkran gw sndr krn krjaan gw yg ga kelar2, n gw jd nangis d kos... tp gw jg berusaha tuk bangkit n memotivasi diri sndr, dg mengingat perjuangan gw tuk dpetin job ini, n jg job ini adlh impian gw... Gw blm cm tangguh tuk menghadapi tiap kesulitan, gw jg masih kekanakan.. gw perlu bljr byk nih.... Kemalasan udh mulai menghantui perlahan2.. gw mulai meninggalkan doa n bc Alkitab jg...astagaaa, sulit tuk mempertahankan imanku ini...:( q jg msh sk ngeluh....

Di blik smua tu, gw lg hepi2nya sih, excited for xmas... meski gw jg ga blik ke rumah, tp gw jg merayakan natal d jkrt brg ko2 gw, pengalaman baru nih....

And, finally... i want to say thanks to God for today, He gives me more blessings today, He recover him too.. I'm so glad...:) so this is Christmas... Lets joy guys!

can I?

Can I make U like me once again?

Mgkn aku ga tau gmn rasa yg kau alami saat itu, mgkn aku jg ga tau gmn sktnya dan cemburunya htimu saat itu, kala kau tau bahwa aku dg yg lain.. aku pun tak tau klo saat itu kau jg memendam rasa utk diriku.. maapkan aku..

Kini aku menyukaimu, kini aku memujamu, kini aku menanti dan mengharapkan dirimu... Aku tak tau bgmn perasaanmu kini... jarak memisahkan kau dg aku, aku ga bs melihat ekspresimu saat kita chat maupun sms.. Jjr, aku merasa tak tau byk tentangmu.. Kau menutup dirimu, tapi kdg ku merasa kau mencoba membuka dirimu..

Apa kau tau? aku merasa tersiksa dg rasa ini, aku hny bs menanti, tanpa tau perasaanmu... Kau misterius bgiku... Aku berhrp kau jg menyukaiku...bkn sbg temen maupun shbt... aku ingin kau menyukai dan menyayangiku serta menjagaku... tp aku tau, aku egois tuk mengharapkanmu... knp?krn dlu mgkn kau mengharapkan diriku, tp aku tak melihatmu...

Aku ingin menyapamu selalu, tp aku jg tll takut... aku ingin kau tau, aku ingin mengenalmu lebih... bolehkah? kau smpt membuatku berubah, dg hny mengenangmu, dg hny mengingatmu, dg hny setiap kata2 yg kau ucapkan... aku sgt bersemangat, aku merasa hidup... tp rasa ini jg bs membuat aku jatuh, melankolis, merasa rindu km, dan srg jg ku merasa kau menjauhiku...

apakah kau inginkan aku tuk mundur?

Tonight I Miss U again

gw nemu lagu...n gw lgsg suka, n pgn bgt dedikasiin ini buat seseorg yg gw suka saat ini :


Greatness as you
Smallest as me
You show me what is deep as sea


A little love, little kiss
A litlle hug, little gift
All of little something. these are our memories


You make me cry, 
Make me smile, 
Make me feel that love is true... 
You always stand by my side, 
I don't want to say goodbye.


You make me cry, 
Make me smile, 
Make me feel the joy of love.
Oh! Kissing you... 
Thank you for all the love you always give to me, 
Oh! I love you... 


(* Repeat from the beginning * 01 time)


Yes I do, I always do... 


Make me cry, 
Make me smile
Make me feel that love is true
You always stand by my side
I don't want to say goodbye.


You make me cry, 
Make me smile, 
Make me feel the joy of love
Oh! Kissing you... 
Thank you for all the love you always give to me, 
Oh! I love you... 


To be with you... Oh! I love you...

Any Part

Hi, diary... today, my country celebrate hero's day...and i almost forget about it (hahaha one of my best friend said that i was "bad citizen" :P)

Almost 2 weeks i've been working at my first place... And, maybe i can say that so many things happened day by day.. I'm not mature enough, not tough enough... i also must learn about how to be patient and hv positive attitude and positive thinking...

Yesterday, i was bad think to my friend, i've been angry to my self that can't do anything and i was really hate that situation... I almost cried at office, but i can handle it,fiuhhh...

Don't u know? being a Christian is not easy... maybe i try to pray every day when i wanna go to office, when i want to eat, and when i wanna go to bed... and i read bible... but i think my attitude still the same...>.< almost 3days of this week, the reflection and Bible said to me about being born again in Christ, more patient, more love, said the truth, soft-spoken.. and as Jesus's son we must reflect our light, and love to others...

I'm not doing that yet... i must learn more and more...

I want to be more better than i am now...

I wanna be useful, i want to hv better skill...

I want to be closer to Jesus...

T.T can I?

i hv my emotion back, sometimes easy to be angry again....

can i be better that i wanna be?

i wanna try my best..

Hari Mingguku

Hr ini, 6 nov 2011 tu hr Minggu skaligus hr Idul Adha...

Sjak kmrn, gw udh liat adanya kambing yg d iket tuk d korbanin hr ni, bau kambing wkwk. tp bukan krn baunya tu, gw mlh miris jg, ksian ma kambingnya, jd kebayang2 deh saat mo makan mlm...>.< bikin ga nafsu makan..

Hr ini gw ketemu ko2 gw, tuk grj... n gw lwtin bbrp t4 tuk pemotongan...>,< pas d jalan saat gw naik busway gw liat ada yg d sembelih.... n pas mo makan d jln jg ada bekas darah, ya ampunnnnn... jjr berasa suram aja liat yg begituan... bikin ga nafsu makan.

N pas mo blik kos jg, d gang kos ad bekas potong2, hiiiiiiyy...gw br kli ni liatin yg bgituan, slama ni ga prnh tau deh kyknya (entah jg pas jaman cilik gw liat gnian apa ga) tp hr ini cukup resah dg liat darahnya tu

Hufhhh, suwung n sepi lg stlh ko2 gw blik ke kosnya...blm terbiasa lg, pdhl kmrn mah ga gmn2...hahaha

Hr ini kotbahnya ttg murah hti, intinya better to give than receive... gw nikmatin ibadah ptama gw ini,yaahh mggu kmrn smpt yg ga ibadah sih hehehe...:)

Gw sgt berharap hr Minggu mendtg segera tiba, bs ke grj lg brg ko2 gw...
bsk krj lg nih, entah bsk akan hadapin apaan...gw smpt tuker pkran ma ko2 gw mengenai hal yg shrsnya gw lakuin n yg kira2 ga hrs gw lakuin....

Gw perlu bljr byk, demi perubahan skill maupun personal gw... slain tu perlu bljr hemat >.< sm perlu jg bljr n bljr tuk ga sll menerima, bljr tuk mandiri....

Gw sll berdoa ma Tuhan tuk pimpin langkah gw hr per hr d kantor maupun d kos...haha feel lonely inside and wanna cry again..sigh... I believe that someday, i'll be better and hv my skill improved...:) God bless us, hepi sunday!

welcome again

hello blog, lm ga jumpa... kangennnnn :-* hehehe

blog, gw udh krj nih, mulai mggu ini sih, y blm genap semggu n msh dlm tahap bljr2 aja >.< n lbh ke bljr sndr, ga ad yg ajarin hehehe. smoga gw bs yaaaa, ini msh dlm tahap adaptasi... gw berserah aja sih ma Tuhan.. tp mayan sneng, gw pny 3 tmen dket d kantor hehe, sesama junior lah...stiap lunch brg, pulang kntr jg brg meski beda arah hehehe...

nice to hv a new experience...^^

Bolang

Diary....

Lusa gw hrs pergi merantau ke jkrt...gw mulai start krj tgl 31okt2011... sigh..gw hrs tinggalin rumah lg n idup d kos2an, stlh sktr 1taun gw d rmh...:')

Berat jg rasanya..tp ni hrs d jlnin..gw pgn deh bs optimis tuk jlnin ini smua, demi ms dpn gw diary...gw pgn lakuin sesuatu tuk ortu gw... gw hny bs berdoa spy Tuhan mampukan n senantiasa melindungi pjlnan hidup gw ma kluarga... Akhir2 ini gw ngerasain berkat yg luar biasa dr Tuhan, Dy mencukupi kebutuhan, gw dpt berkat sepatu baru, celana kain baru, dpt cemilan2, d pnuhi kebutuhan pangan, senantiasa d lindungi... God is the best all the time... He gives the best for me, and for u too...

Praise God...:)

Puji Tuhan....

Sungguh puji Tuhan.... gw pgn nangis skrg ini... nangis bahagia... akhirnya gw dpt apa yg slama ini gw cri... perjlnan gw slama ini rasanya terbayar sudah... hmpr setaun gw frustasi, hmpr setaun gw nyari n down, hmpr setaun gw ngerepotin kakak, ortu, shbt2 gw... hmpr setaun mrk sll support gw...:')

Makasih ya smuanya... 

Tp koq stlh dpt, gw ngerasa terbelenggu ya, haha udh ga bs santai kyk biasa, tp emg ini yg gw mau...gw pgn pny kegiatan... smoga gw bs menghargai apa yg gw dpt n gw bs fokus, bs lakuin maksimal apa yg gw bs... 

Pas gw td dpt kbrnya, gw kepgn bs share kebahagiaan gw ma org yg gw suka, sm ortu, kakak gw, shbt gw...namun org yg gw suka entah dmana n apa yg dy lakuin skrg.... Mrk smua berharga buat gw, sll support gw d saat gw down... mrk motivator gw... Makasih byk :') makasih... Mgkn kalian ada rasa jenuh dg gw yg sll down n ga smgt, maap ya, scr ga lgsg kalian jd ikut cmpr dlm keresahan gw, dlm sgala hawa2 negatif dlm pkran gw....

Hahaha...ga tau lg hrs blg apa... SEMANGAT!!!!!!! hahaha gw pgn bs smgt kyk sohib gw, n gw pgn bs rajin kyk kakak & org yg gw suka, gw pgn bs tegar n tabah kyk papa gw...... I love U all.... 18 nov 2010 n 18 okt 2011 ga akan gw lupain.....:')

Ini Ceritaku....

hi diary...

Gw pny crita bru nih... Bbrp hr lalu, gw ke jkrt lg, tepatnya mulai brgkt hr mggu pg (16okt2011) jm 07.40 tuk menuhin interview d hr slasa 18okt2011 alias kmrn.. n kmrn sore nya gw lgsg deh meluncur balik ke rmh... fiuhhh, cpek jg.. kaki udh berasa pegel

D sna gw byk nemu bbrp rintangan, mulai dr penjaga kos kakak gw yg matre (pemalak super sadis! grrr..), gw yg d landa bingung n hmpr nyerah jg pas kmrn.. Nyali gw smpt ciut gara2 tu bapak2 yg malak, d kira gw bkn adik kandung, n malak 150rb/ hr tuk nginep..aje gileee bapak, lu pkr duit turun dr langit ye? lu pkr gw d sono ngapain aje mpe 150rb? paling gw cm numpang tidur, numpang mandi, pke listrik jg cm lptp...ga nyampe segtu kaliiiiiii... sebel gw.. gw ngerasa ga berdaya n ngerepotin kakak gw.. sbnrnya d brosur jg 450rb/week... nah lho, bgi aje deh tu, sehr brp? oon bin stupid kali ya tu bapak, matanya d butain ma duit mpe ga bs ngitung...

Rncn gw yg mo blik hr rabu akhirnya gw majuin deh jd slasa sore, mls gw d sna, ms hrs byr lg...

kmrn tu gw berasa sial deh, haha.. udh kluar kos tu jam 6.30 makan dlu, lalu tggu kopaja 20.. ehhh tu kopaja ga nongol2 mpe stgh 8, mn jalan jg udh macet buangetttttttt! hahaha. gw smpt mo nyerah, kepkr pke taxi, tp jg berasa eman2 duit... kakak sih smpt nyaranin gw ke blok M dlu br ke t4 tujuan, cm gw ogah, tkutnya nyasar, hufhhh nasib2 hahaha, mn d dket situ ga ada halte busway...

Finally, gw naik bajaj, si abang teh minta 30rb, d tawar deh, akhirnya 25rb, ehm gw pkr gw aman nih, bs nyampe dg selamat, hahaha tnyt d luar dugaan, ni kesialan gw berikutnya... gw d turunin gt aja, dg alsn bajaj cm bs nyampe situ, ga bs lebih.. Alamakkk! gw asing ma tu t4, si abang mah bs bilang jalan ke sono tu udh daerahnya, lha iya klo gw ngerti..ni ga ngerti.. >.< gw smpt mo nangis, smpt crita ke kakak gw.. dy nyaranin gw jgn panik n cb tny org..

Gw smpt tny sm seorg cewe, ehm cm dy jg ga tll paham..n nyaranin gw tny tukang ojek... gw smpt sih mo telusurin sndr, tp bner2 ga ada bayangan tu dmana, ada sih halte busway,tp q ga knal ma tu halte, asing aje. Akhirnya gw putusin naik ojek...bye2 10rb hahaha... yg pntg gw nyampe dg slmt.. Sbnrnya sih, klo d telusurin pke jalan kaki bs jg,andai gw tau t4nya, tp jg ga tll dket jg t4nya hahaha

Jrenggg, gw d perush tu tes n interview, tesnya amburadul wkwk, tp singkat crita, kyk nya sih bs goal...n gw d minta medical check up... Gw putusin tuk lgsg ke sna hr itu jg, biar gw bs lgsg balik...:P

Gw jalan kaki dlu nuju halte busway, n wusss brgkt.. pas turun, gw smpt tny org, ada bapak2 nyaranin gw tuk lgsg exit,n tinggal jln kaki, dket katanya dr situ.. maap y pak,sy ga pcy dg bapak, berhubung sblmnya sy NYASAR oleh tukang bajaj, jd sy ga berani deh... akhirnya gw naik tangga busway ke haluan lain, sejauh mata memandang wow! nemu deh tu gedung, oalah......gw br tau, tu bapak ga slh...n gw akhirnya ga jd naik busway, gw pke tangga busway tuk numpang lewat aje,hehehehe.. trims ya pak! (gw smpt niat blik lg cm tuk blg thx ke tu bapak,tp ga jd wkwkk)

Huaaa, ini nih, medical check up nya suram,hahaha... nadi gw ga ketemu2, mpe d encus 3x deh... kanan kiri, ma d pergelangan tgn... bekasnya terasa pula....T.T stlh d encus jg q lgsg lemes, anti ma jarum suntik, berasa dy menyedot smuaaaaaa kekuatan gw hahahahaha *lebay dikit :P*

Yah stlh medical check up, gw lgsg meluncur ke harmoni, lalu ke gambir hehehe. wuihhh tumben amat kmrn tu yg pulogadung laris manis yg antri hahaha. Singkat crita, gw nyampe gambir jm stgh 3, n lgsg beli karcis tuk jm 5sore wkwk, lama bgt nunggunya kmrn, boring sangaaaatt,haha. Keretanya ontime hehe, TOP deh, tp kedinginan jg sih d kereta wkwkk...gw nyampe d kota tercinta jm 8mlm, d jmpt jg sm papa hehehe... Niatnya sih klo ga dpt tiket, gw mo numpang d kos sohib gw sambil menjailinya lg hihihihi *devil* thx for her, she always support me! ^^

Itulah cerita gw kmrn, 12jam yg melelahkan n bersejarah...gw br nyadar kmrn tgl 18 haha... almost 1 taun jg dr tgl 18nov2010 saat itu.... ehm 18 oh 18....^^

Smoga Tuhan berikan yg terbaik...Amin..

Deeper

Dear blog...

Gmana memulainya yah, gw sndr bngng tuk mulai critanya.. kpgn ngblog tp jg bngng curhatnya nih... Gw berasa gundah ih, ya ampun... hrsnya kan prioritas utama gw tu ttg job n ms dpn, tp yg gw pkrin mlh rasa suka gw pdnya,ckck..

Akhir2 ini gw mlh jd deg2an, pdhl cm inget dy, or skedar liat ada nama n sms dy d hp...huffh, klo mnrt sohib gw sih, tu namanya cinta.. gw mgkn udh tambah naksir dy nih..duh gmana dong? gw jd cemas sndr... d tmbh lg, gw tau dy bakal eksis trs d YM, gw jd kepgnnya tuh ol mulu...

Gw lbh suka klo dy jrg ol kyk dlu.. Gw biasanya jg emg ngarep dy ol, n stiap gw ol yg gw cri ptama yaitu dy...n gw udh terbiasa tuk menunggu apakah dy akan ol saat itu... saat dy ol, gw nyapa dy n chat, tu bikin gw sneng buanggeeet! tp klo skrg... y bukannya gw ga sneng klo dy bakal ol, n bs jd gw srg chat kan ma dy dg kyk gni... tp bukan tu yg d pkran gw.. gw ngerasa dg gt,gw bakal ganggu dy dong, gw bakal ol mulu krn tau dy ol, gw bakal ol mulu demi liat dy...

Ga bgs aja sih, gw pgn bgt bs mendam rasa ini....

Skrg, saat gw lg nulis blog, gw jg d temenin ma tayangan RCTI "when sule meet sulis" hihi, bgs sih,cm gw ga liat dr awal deh... selain itu, dy jg sbnrnya ol sih...tp ga gw sapa..coz dy busy...gw rasa jg ga bgs lah ganggu dy...gw ngarepnya dy yg nyapa q...hukz kan tu brrti dy ga sibuk...:)

Btw dy jg lg ga enak bdn nih,,,sedih euy....entah dy skt nya apa... hope u'll get well soon n gw kepgn bgt bs tau kbr dy...pgn bs tau dy knp... tp gw jg tkut tuk ksh phtian ini pdnya.. ehmm brusan dy off....>.<

Met beraktivitas yah,,, GBU

In The Dark

In The Dark..
I'm writing my blog
In The Dark..
I'm thinking of you
In The Dark..
I feel so stupid
In The Dark..
I can't feel any hope
In The Dark..
I try to seek the light one

Who am I today? It's different part of me,
being stupidest today, can't think clearly,
being emotion to catch you...
catch someone who's nowhere and far away,
catch someone who doesn't care..
who doesn't hv the same feeling...
who am I? being so selfish, just think my self,
deeply fall to the darkness of frustation...
Come on, wake up! face the truth of ur life
It's not ur true destiny,
U must try hard to catch another one...
If u failed, just try harder and harder..
Make him as ur inspiration, it's good
Don't bother him so much,
just admire him secretly, it's enough...

Walk by ur own feet,
Catch by ur own hands,
Dream by ur own faith...

Gomenasai

What I thought wasn’t mine
In the light
Wasn’t one of a kind
A precious pearl

when I wanted to cry
I couldn't cause I
Wasn’t allowed

gomenasai
For everything
gomenasai
I know I let you down
gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought I was a note
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of Porcelain

When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself

gomenasai
For everything
gomenasai
I know I let you down
gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
like I do now

What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege

When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away

gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
gomenasai
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
gomenasai
I let you down
gomenasai
gomenasai
gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
=========================================

I made u know this...

But also i cancelled it..

I'm sorry, i'm too afraid

Afraid if u know, afraid if u read...

I dont want to ruin our friend's relationship

I'm too coward, I can't imagine if u knew it..

I cried last night, 

My heart was crying, don't want to delete that post...

But I think it's better to delete...

I buried it deeper....

Rainy tears

I'm not in a good mood today...so boring >_____< i can't think clearly... and i'm not mood in chat with others too... suddenly, i got message from sister of my friend, she ask for the insurance, sorry before and after, i reject it, but she try hard to explain more to me... it's not getting effect...she made me angry...and i told her clearly that i've said no, and it means no... sorry... i'm not in good mood at all, and u insist me...argggh!

When i'm writing it, my tears falling too...i can't bear it anymore.. how pity i am? my heart yelling inside...ask for the exit....

Farewell Wish

I've been thinking a lot

But nothing I got

I've tried different

But it's useless

When I got back my spirit

Tomorrow comes to erase it

Lazy, bored, tired come so quick to me

Destroy me..

I feel like i'm gonna be nothing

Every day goes so fast

I can't reach it

I can't handle it anymore

Every night I feel afraid of the new day

I don't want to see new day

I really hope time can stop rotating

I can't take it easy anymore

I don't wanna try a new again

I want to dump all the stories

Useless, hopeless, and lonely....

It's me now...

When i can say good bye...? When i can celebrate it and make the biggest farewell party in my life?

Kegagalan

Wah, gw ini tipe yg rajin ngeblog apa gmn ya...haha koq tiap hr ada aja yg d post...>_< tu brrti byk kisah idup gw yg emg bermakna n bs jg d sbut sbg suatu pengalaman deh, entah pntg or tdk...

Well, crita gw hr ni yaitu ttg kegagalan.. Yup hr ni gw ngalamin kegagalan (tuk ke brp kli ya?ehmm) dpt job...pjuangan yg udh gw mulai sktr 2mggu lalu hrs berakhir mpe d sni aja... Jujur sih, gw hr ni berasa flat, gw emg pkr bakal do the best aja, tp gw jg ga ada feeling optimis lolos... Eh tnyt bener ga lolos,meski begitu gw ga nangis tuh...tu yg gw suka dr diri gw hr ni...^^ krn sblmnya gw prnh yg nangis,ckck... syukur deh gw bs tegar tuk kali ni..

Nightmare gw udh berakhir...yah, ni jd pengalaman kegagalan gw yg msh blm terpecahkan.. mgkn ga akan ada lain kali tuk menghadapi hal yg serupa dg ini... Tmen2 seperjuangan gw jg heran dg hr ni.. Okelah, gw jlsin sdkt..hr ni tu grup discussion gt, gw sblmnya prnh ikut discussion kyk gni n gw gagal,wew kali ni gw jg msh gagal... Tuk hr ni kyknya cm ada 2 kloter, yg jm 9 ma 10.30...gw yg jm 10.30, haha tp udh nyampe sna jm 9! (bkn krn kerajinan dtg! tp mls tggu d kos, jdilah gw brgkt awal wkwkwk dududnya =.=)

Yg kloter 1 tu lolos smua, 1 klmpk tu ada 7org gt....n koq yg kloter 2 cm 1 yg lolos??! Kenapa oh kenapa? hahahaha temen 1 klmpk gw heran...sbnrnya gw tmsk kget jg dg hsl tu, soalnya gw anggep mrk yg gagal brg gw tu udh aktif koq dlm diskusi.. bahkan gw smpt pkr, kyknya cm gw yg bakal gagal dr klmpk gw ini... tnyt mlh yg gagal 6org, n yg lolos cm 1.... ini namanya TRAGIS jg sih wkwk...knp bs gtu ya...apa yg mjd keistimewaan 1org ni, ehm mgkn hny tim penilai tu yg tau...

Well, ambil hikmahnya aj...gw plg awal, bs istrht jg, dmana kondisi tubuh jg ga enak...bkn jodohnya krj sono, msh ada hr esok tuk mencoba yg lain...smoga gw jg ga patah arang :P

yah, buat yg berhsl, slmt ya..lanjutkan pjuanganmu d sna! ^^

Buat yg gagal kyk gw :

"Tetep smgt yah guys! Keep moving as Job Hunter.. Gud Luck!"

New Adventure

Hellow... its been so long that i ignore u... now, im here again with my new story...

Skrg gw lg d Jakarta, ibukota tercinta yg padat merayap,hufhh.. gw memulai ptualangan gw lg nih, guys! gw smpt merambah daerah blok M pke busway lalu dr terminal blok M gw naik metromini 610 menuju panglima polim raya... so tired, its approximately 1hour to reach that place from my start place in centre of Jakarta...

And, byk hal jg sih yg gw liat... d metromini gw smpt d hibur dg hadirnya para pengamen, n yg buat berkesan tu mrk ngamen ber 3, n istilah kerennya mah mrk sbg drummer, keyboardist, and guitarist...asik aj dngr mrk nyanyi, metromini jd rame dg jedug2 alat musik mrk, d kala macet n panasnya hr...:)

Slain itu gw jg liat ada yg tuna rungu, mrk ber 3 ngbrl pke bahasa isyarat...gw tertarik jg sih liat mrk, smpt terbesit d pkran gw klo mrk tu ksian, oh NO! segera pkran tu gw ilangin, mrk ga ksian n ga patut d kasihani, WHY? because we r the same as them... Ga ada bedanya, sm2 makan nasi, sm2 ngerasain pendidikan... Justru hrsnya qta yg tidak kurang spt mrk lbh bersyukur aja deh.....

Itu secuil crita gw d metromini, tp jgn slh... crita gw d busway jg ada... ehm dr yg busway ni gw bljr ttg kedisiplinan sih... Kan udh jls2 deh ada larangan utk makan, minum or ngerokok d dlm busway... TAPI kenyataannya?? wew... heran deh gw... mrk tu ga bs bc kali ya? or mrk pkr aturan ada tu utk d langgar? soalnya gw liat ada yg minum, n ada jg smpt yg makan.. Apa hrsnya gw negur ya? bngng gw, gw tkutnya berasa bukan hak sih negur2 gt... yah tulisan larangannya emg relatif kcl sih, anggeplah mrk ga paham tuk hal ini, haha jd inget, dlu jg gw nyaris mo minum d busway, tp kakak gw yg larang n blg ga blh minum d busway :P

Petualangan gw msh lnjt esok hr nih, i'll do my best lah pokoknya...n gw berhrp yg terbaik aja dr Tuhan.. n jika emg gw gagal, smoga gw ga down n nangis,ckckck...

Well... barusan jg gw nemu kata2 yg bs motivasiin gw nih,,,

"Job loss is not the end of the world! You may be down (for a bit); but, you are certainly not out. Get your plan in place and pursue your next opportunity. Success is imminent – you need to believe it, too."

Dont give up....GBU...

Amazing Day in The Morning

Gud morning....!

Pg yg cerah nan sejuk...Setelah kmrn gw crita ttg sms yg pending, absolutely gw dpt jwbnnya hr ini! Do u know? its not a problem with others, but its problem about mine... Tnyt SIM card q tercinta yg eror, ga bs trima sms kmrn, haduh...sungguh menghambat karier n komunikasi... Tmen gw yg sms pas sktr petang mlh smsnya br gw trima jm 02.40...... wew!

Tapi y udh lah...liat sisi positifnya aja.. Ptama hr ni gw bgn jm 6pg (wow! what a record?! haha) tepatnya sih tu terbangun aja, ga pke alarm n ga terencana... Lgsg gw liat hp gw, niatnya mo liat sms2 yg gw krm kmrn tu terkrm apa ga...eh tnyt ada sms dr temen gw yg td smpt gw bahas..

Lalu gw blsin sms tmen gw tu, n jg cb nego lg dg si ibu... hsilnya dy ksh tanggapan positif..deal deh! Gw bakal ke jkrt mggu ni, n snin gw menghadap dy... Trs nya gw jg td jm 6.30 nntn animasi kesukaan gw, yaitu Mr bean,hehe thx for someone yg udh ksh tau gw ttg acara ini :P

Bukan cm itu, ada jg hal buruk yg udh terjadi pg hr ni.. Sodara gw smpt telp n konfirmasi ttg job itu, n awalnya yg angkat tu mama gw.. Dr sni gw bljr 1 hal, di mana tiap org mgkn butuh pengakuan, butuh respect dr org lain, butuh sapaan dlm artian "Tunjukkin donk kesopanan loe...", yah susah jg ya klo udh nyangkut mslh kesopanan,apalg dr lingkup keluarga.. Jd deh, mama gw udh berkicau d pg hr, bukannya menyambut hr, tapi mlh mengutuki hr dg cuapan2nya itu... Mls bgt deh dngrnya, n kli ni gw ga pgn ikut cmpr deh... Klo kmrn2 sih gw emg bs pasang badan, n ciptain Perang Dunia ke-sekian kalinya ke mama, tp hr ni mending diem n tumpahin smuanya ke dlm tulisan...

Istilahnya mah, "Karepmulah..." "Up to u..." hahaha, soalnya dy keras kpla, mo d nasehatin kyk apa jg ga mempan wkwk, jd terserah dy mo marah ma orgnya lgsg jg...y emg sih ad rasa ga enak d benak gw, krn sodara gw yg bantu ksh info job ke gw, cm y mo gmn...tinggal ntr d bahas aj deh ma papa gw pas dy udh pergi hihi... Berasa damai dunia ini klo dy ga d rumah, Sumpeh deh!

Mgkn gw tll ekstrim y, apalg tu nyokap gw sndr,yg lahirin gw, tp y mo gmn, emg gt kenyataannya...cm share aja sih, meski gt y gw tetep sadar nn ngakuin dy mama gw...

Well... itulah yg terjadi d pg ni...ada kesan positifnya tp jg ada ngtf nya... So, buat kalian yg mgkn ngerasa bad day hr ni,or kpn pun deh, just remember that "There Is a Positive Thing Inside Negative Thing"

Jd, jgn bersungut2 or meratapi ya...  

He knows the best for u, u must still wait until the right time (God's time) come to u...

Smiling Night

Knapa judulnya smiling night? soalnya mlm ni gw cengar cengir sndr ga jls,hahaha... berbekal chat YM, dngrin crita seseorg, jd deh tawa gw meledak hahaha

Perbedaan itu indah...jika kita mampu melihatnya sbg sesuatu yg unik n mampu menerimanya... Cinta itu sulit, d saat kita terlalu terpaku pada keegoisan, harga diri, amarah, rasa benci dan skt hti dlm diri kita... Andai aja kita mampu membuka hati kembali, melupakan & memaafkan, mencoba menerima perbedaan, maka cinta akan terasa indah... Jangan pernah mencoba MEMAKSA dalam cinta, jangan pernah juga kita berkata n berpkr bahwa simbol cinta tu KISS, krn tu SALAH BESAR! Kiss hny bagian dr nafsu, n simbol cinta yg tulus adalah ketulusan hati kita utk peduli, memberi perhatian, n menerima seseorg yg kita sayangi n cintai....

Good night bloggers! Keep ur true love inside ur heart, dont ever let them go only by ur selfish...

Sad Being Me

Galau... Pikiran lg ga bagus.. Rasanya kepgn bs ngeblog.. Yah, gw jd keinget jaman2 skul dlu dmana gw pny buku diary, and almost everyday i wrote my story... Suka sih nulis crita2 gtu saat gw lg sedih maupun seneng krn tu bs bikin lega..

Well...ni hr ptama gw ngeblog d sni... dpt ilham dr temen gw sih, 2 hr lalu dy ngeblog jg jd gw kepkr alangkah asiknya jg klo gw bs kyk gni, pny blog n bs nulis apapun...hehe thx for my friend..

Balik ke campur aduknya hati ini... Rasanya sedih bgt jd diri gw.. Gw ngerasa change a lot, n cndrg negatif rasanya... Being alone, being lazy and do nothing, being more melancholic... Andai aja gw pny job, gw udh bayangin, gw bakal rajin bgn pg, trs ktmu ma org2 kntr, n kehidupan gw ga bakal mati kyk skrg... bs duduk dpn kompie or lptp to do work... hahhh.. gw cm bs hela napas..tu cm angan2 aja, krn KENYATAAN nya sungguh sgt jauh berbeda..

Gw cm d rumah tiap hr, mls2an, hny nongkrongin lptp, playing games or fb, chat YM...that's it! idup yg flat, n berasa mati... bgn siang, hobi tidur, mls mandi... Buruk bgt ya gw ini? berasa useless..
Yg berhsl bikin gw mellow lg y tentu aja ttg status jobless gw ini.. gw smpt d kbrin kakak sepupu tuk ngelamar salah 1 bank d Jakarta.. ngelamar nya aja pke pjuangan, krm email berkali-kali, huffh mn koneksi inet jg ga capcus... singkatnya, mrk ajak gw ke sna, tp hrs bsk...alamak! gw kan bkn stay d Jkrt.. mrk nya jg bukannya hubungin gw lgsg ehh mlh via sodara gw...agak ga suka sih gw.. trs gw cb nego minta ganti hr koq mrk nya kyk ga bs... Brusan jg sodara gw telp gw lg, tny kejlsn ke gw?

Koq berasa gw yg jd tersangka d sni, ckck.. yah akhirnya gw cb deh sms si ibu, cb tny bs ga mggu dpn, tp pending...pdhl krm udh mpe 3x...
Sbnrnya gw udh smpt pny smgt lg sih bbrp hr lalu, tp skrg udh menciut lg deh... Gw jd keinget sih kotbah pendeta gw, klo qta tu ga useless, we can do anything usefull in our life and for others too... Sbnrnya gw jg pcy,klo d balik sesuatu yg ngtf, pasti ada sesuatu yg positif d dlmnya yg bs qta ambil.. n sbnrnya klo jodoh ma tu job, pasti ga bakal lari kemana y... Cm sayangnya, gw bukan tipe org yg positive thinking! Yah... susahnya gt.. jd ni tetep aja mellow.. tetep aja frustasi...

Butuh referensi kali ya gw ini,ato bhkn ekstrim nya tu hrs ke psikiater haha, ooopss ga mpe sgtunya jg sih...
ehm crita udh pjg, udh lmyn lega sih...smoga gw bs nuai makna yg indah d balik kesedihan ini...:)

Have a nice day! Smile...^^