My Silly Cutie Best Friend

Hello, its me again! Im not sleep yet, my brain still wondering about my thought, so i decided to read again all of my past posting in this blog... Haha silly me, also make me laugh read my post.. It was almost all about him, about love and job that i posted... But also i find myself tried to hv more spirit, surrender to God, and had positive thinking (although it was so hard until this time!)

My brain still working, and i remember my silly cutie best friend, that almost always comfort, help, and support me... She knows me well, she almost knows everything about me.... I had lost much moments about her, seldom to meet, but sometimes we chat... So, i visit her home again, read her stories.

There are some fun, cheerful always and also silly...i find that she wrote about our conversation before... The fact is, she had changed now, she isnt the same as before that i knew for the first time.. Maybe because her silliness, about sociality, and her job that make her change... Im a bit shock, but i know and i believe i still can find her silliness inside her, her smile, her good, always still be my best friend that always laugh, cheer me up, and hug me while i cried....

Haha, im crying while im writing this, maybe she will say : "lebay" to me, but its my feelings towards her.... I also told her, if she was here, i will hug her, really really wanna hug her, and asking "are u okay being like this?"

I read her story, about the cigarette lighter and also other her adventures... These make me know u r really really love being free (i knew it already, u like travelling), do what u want, but also u know every risk in every step u take... Yeah, u know it, but why u choose that path? Im sad when u taste that spicy fried rice and aching stomach, without anyone else accompany u....

Im sorry if im interfere that much, maybe u will say that u r OK with that, and totally no problem with that....u can explore many things, u can also survive in it...

I remember, someone told me that "naughty or wild people can survive more than good people"

Yeah maybe u also can more survive than me in this world, learn and see many beautiful also bad things.... Hope u wont be changed a lot in character, still be silly for me, still be good to me, i always want u to be my silly cutie best friend that call me "innocent"